"Optimize" -- a poem 6l1344

Working on a set of poems and so I thought I'd put it here real quick. Blunt appreciated *** I’m out to lunch with a friend and he asks me -- what are you optimizing for? I think to myself, what are you optimizing for? Success? Thinking then everything will suck less But still upset because no matter how much you will accomplish it’s never enough yet the only thing you can think about is what’s next such stress and that your ego is unchecked ? What are you optimizing for? Network? Eagerly waiting for your pants pocket to vibrate Seeking validation from total strangers prioritizing them over loved ones To what end? Mistaking communities rooted in commerce for true friends Followers + swallowers What are you optimizing for? Skills? Rescheduling spreading yourself thin It’s like, why not suck at just one thing? Jack of all trades And we don’t know jack about dick on twitter intellectually masturbating just jacking a dick I guess it ain't a coincidence that the addiction to twitter was hatched and then jacked by a Jack and a Dick* I mean all this tech is great, but sometimes I feel like the I-watch is watching me, the I touch is touching me I feel that the internet snark is making fun of me It doesn’t feel fruitful even though it makes a money tree. ironic that the loneliest people always run a company Periscope is watching me watch them watch me I have to ask who’s watching the technology So when you ask me what I‘m optimizing for I’m optimizing for the things that can’t be optimized. Like being human. can’t Google that you can’t see it with Google Maps or Google Glass or Google Earth. Every Saturday I turn my phone off I’m trying to forget the world and the universe I mean love tech. I want everyone in the world to have an iPad. I just also want us to make eye . I see two homeless people having sex in the alley, My friend points and calls it “analogue” ?I don’t wanna get lost in it, it don’t feel right I stand next to the homeless just to what reality smells like I’l bring the human back and I’ll do it in your : I’ll be the Uber for introspection Comion for the Pinterest generation I am an easier way to accept love online. I'll be forgiveness, for Millenials. No. Too much optimizing. anything worth optimizing for isn’t worth dying for So when you ask me what I’m optimizing for, I will tell you I’m optimizing for the things that can’t be optimized. real love isn’t scalable unlimited choice can be unbearable Happiness is when u love someone specific But it’s hard to love specific when everything is available Not optimal to give so much of me to one person but I DO. To try to hack a relationship is to miss the whole point of having it in the first place It’s not hackable This business of my lifestyle, it’s not venture backable The thing I’m mostly trying to grow, my gratitude, my character, my attitude, how come I don’t find that on Hacker News I’m optimizing for trees and the bees and the breeze. Money, status, can’t measure my worth My philosophy photosynthesize through plant life and thus I give back to the earth. I’m optimizing for friends. real friends You shouldn’t count your s You should count the number of weep that will weep at your funeral Some people’s funerals are networking conferences I’m trying to cut my inner circle less is more, Fuck Forbes 30 under 30 What I need fake friends for? That’s not what my value comes from I get my value in communities. And not online communities that make money in obscure ways (potentially) the communities that don’t scale Like my 3 friends that we sit and have slumber parties every 3 months to talk about our feelings I'm optimizing to become a better person learning to love the parts of myself that no one claps for The personality traits no one endorses me on Linkedin for the relationships i live for So yeah, I tell my friend, as we’re about to order food, that’s what I’m optimizing for How about you? w5y18